I shared with you on my social media that I was featured in a digital photo series called “HerStory In Black” profiling Black women from Ontario. I was so honoured to be included in this major project produced by Emily Mills of How She Hustles. On Monday the Canadian Broadcasting Company (CBC) hosted an event celebrating all 150 of us. And I almost didn’t go…because I was all up in my feelings.
That whole day I procrastinated finding something to wear, I didn’t take the time I knew it needed to sort that out. Once I did begin my clothes hunt, I ended up changing 5 times. I wanted to look good. I thought to myself “Maybe if I look great it will distract from the fact that I don’t have my life together.” The fact that I’m “in the meantime”…in progress…in transition. I was waging war with the little voice in my head that was saying “the reason you were featured is because of who you were and you no longer have that job…you’re no longer that person.”
I eventually plucked up the energy to go. Once I got there I flitted about the room, capturing video for my instastories, eyes on my screen, busying myself, walking quickly, air kiss after air kiss, having fast convos. (If you were watching my instagram live you saw it happening in real time.)
It wasn’t until after I started listening to d’bi.young anitafrika and Jully Black’s words on stage that I started to humble myself. I heard messages of perseverance; calls to push through the personal and collective struggles. At one point the entire room was chanting ” “I’m a Girl, I’m a Lady, I’m a Woman, I’m a Queen… I’m everything I can dream.”
I migrated purposely to the back of the room and stood with Victor to take it all in. To witness the beauty, the poignancy of Black women shining, twinkling in all their glory. Imagine how many of them felt like they didn’t belong in their fields, imagine how many of them were passed over, had to work twice as hard, were misunderstood, were never recognized in the national conversation.But kicked ass in spite of all that. Imagine all the stories…150 stories! I started to realize that every, doctor, artist, scientist, politician, journalist, executive…blogger in the room… is on a journey. We all deserve to be seen and to be seen for where we are on our journeys.
This was so not about me y’all. This was so much bigger than me.
I wish I had taken more pictures but as I mentioned I was busy, busying myself. There are so many other Black women who could have been in this room. If you’re one of those women and you’re reading this, I hope you know that this is just a tiny subset of Black female excellence in Canada. Would love to hear your thoughts in the comments section below. Thank you for reading!
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